wooo doggie is what Nate {my husband} says when something smells really bad, like a poopy diaper, usually. Once in a while he will use that phrase for something exciting or crazy.
At one particular chemo my mom pulled out the potions and started to squirt the body spray in the hosptial stenched air,and rub lotion on the pillows when-- I caught a wiff....
OH No, Mom! Thats my favorite. {Sparkling Green Apple- Bath and Body Works, it was new}
I know she felt really bad- because now and forever that smell would be ruined- no longer a favorite, or something I could smell again, in 24 hours it was done for.
It was like a ritual, an initaiation for my room each time we came. We would try to attempt to smother the smells that accompany every hospital- bed, room and pillow. We would use the same smells (same body lotion and spray) for 2-3 chemos, as long as I could take it. Then it was really gone.
So here are some of the smells that have been ruin henceforth and forever.
Sparkling Green Apple...Was the just one of the many Bath an dBody Works....also accompanying it on the "do not smell list"
Plumeria
Juniper Breeze
Sensual Amber (VS)
Love Spell (although, this one I don't completely hate)
Country Apple
Vanilla
Sun-Rippened Raspberry
Pearberry
Pretty much all those classic bath and body work ones...
Other than perfumed lotion
I don't like the smell of
Peppermint - It is what Nioxin smells like...therefore reminds me of loosing my hair
CoffEE and Bacon- It seems this was always 'whats for breakfast' in the hospital, the morning after throwing up all night. At first I would try to choke down the eggs and bacon (never coffee for obvious reasons) and after it ALWAYS coming back up, I gave up. Nonetheless- other patients still needed to eat and the floor still smelled of coffee and bacon in the morning.
So I hate coffee isles, when we stay at in-laws and we wake up to "the best part of waking up" isn't folders in their cup for me.
As for bacon- WHO can give up bacon! for reals. I just don't like the smell when it is cooking, but I don't mind eating it. I still eat it. weird. I never go with out a wave a memories flooding with the smell wafting around the kitchen though.
Anything thing that smells remotly like hospital...sometimes the soap at stores or public places smell like the hospital brand.
FLY J, in Snowville, UT
On our way there, and our way back it was our pee/eating stop. It has a very distinct smell. Greece and truckers WhOOOO DOGGIE. and therefore, everytime we stop the mac and cheese just reminds me of chemo-filled weekends.
I know there are more smells, I can't think of em. when I do I'll come back and add them.
I think I have always been a little sensitive to smells- not that I'm necessarily annoyed by them or allergic but noticed them and on top of my experinces then of course that just intesified my sensitivity. Which it is not unknown to the world that this happens to hospital patients.
My increased sensitvity hasn't gone really- Many of my memories are attached to the smell of a lotion or perfum, maybe even a cleaner haha
Sometimes I wear Sensual Amber and it reminds me of my sister. Now it will remind me of your chemo too!
ReplyDeleteman what a drag that all those smells don't treat you right. This information is good to know I hope I don't ever set your sniffer off in a bad way. What are your plans the next two mornings
ReplyDeleteDes, I'm so glad that you've been journaling these experiences, and that you're choosing to share them with all of us. What a journey you've been on {to say the least}. A few weeks ago I finally found the time to sit down and read this whole blog from the very beginning {this was late at night after the whole fam was asleep}. I stayed up and read the entire thing, and I just sat there crying through most of it. I couldn't believe that this gorgeous, vibrant, fun, & seemingly perfectly healthy woman -that I had just started to get to know- had been to hell and back. Literally.
ReplyDeleteI can't even express how much that I admire you, your attitude about everything you've been through, and how impressed that I am by your strength. You inspire me. Thank you so much for sharing.
remind me never to give you lotion or perfume for a gift, I wouldn't want to get you one that made you sick!
ReplyDeleteLotions that I used then dont make me sick now and then don't necessaerily drive me crazy or anything- its just that I have those memories when I smell them now. The did bug me back then though....and I probably wont own them again....make sense??
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