This is just a shorty. After one of my first couple Chemos, we went to go stay at my grandma Doxey's house, we did this often after chemo. Because I was so sick and we usually got out of the hosptial Saturday night-we just drove the hour to my Grandma house. So I was doing good after those first chemos, I would only get nausous a couple of times; and would recover much faster.
Well if you know my grandparents, you know that they LOVE the Jazz. And during this time they were in the playoffs or finals with the Bulls- ahhh the good ol days of Malone and Stockon. On this Saturday night I felt like crap, but I was pretending to feel better than I was. You know- so that I would seem STRONG, like the chemo wasnt going to effect me. I wanted to put on a tough face! ha. it didn't last long.
To celebrate the BIG game, or just get get me a treat because of what I just went through, they got some big ice cream cones from somewhere? And I was toward the end of it, sitting on the couch, and all the sudden it came up with no warning! So much ice cream barf ALL over. It was the weirdest (and grossest) thing because I seriously didn't have any warning to run for the bunkers.
Man, I was REALLY embarassed. It was one of my "most embarassing" moments at the time. Probably for several reasons...
1. who likes to clean up barf. i mean common. and since I just did it they aren't going to let me help.
2. My Grandma is so good at keeping her house clean- then me happened.
3. We are a GUEST.
4. There goes my tough face...right down the drain. ok guys, it really does effect me.
Hugs! My mom hates asking for help because she is embarrassed by the crazy things chemo does to her. I wish I could be there to help her. :o(
ReplyDeleteoh man Des!Gosh you have had your fair share!! I love how human you are showing us you are...things like this have happened to everyone but most people are too embarrassed still to share them...it is refreshing to see someone throw it all out on the table!! As embarrassed as you were and as unpleasant as throw-up is...I am sure all that anyone in the room felt was an outpouring of love for you, cleaned it up with no gripes, and said a prayer in their hearts for YOUR comfort, not theirs. I am positive.
ReplyDeleteI really do appreciate this blog you are doing. I knew your illness was tough but of course I never really understood how much...and of course I never really will because I have not experienced it...but you are one incredible Chica! And your wedding picture with your dad (on the other blog) is priceless and you are absolutely stunning!